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lets talk about thursday, shall we?
yes, i'm late by a day. its friday now, bak kata rabecca....
after almost a year, i was listening to that song just now..how lifeless one could be to be playing that song?
at 4 in the morning?

#this is my first weekend/night without my roomate....

we all need that now, a melarikan diri project, solo or berkumpulan.
should have gone back yesterday too..right after i handed in that cs thingy. right after our malay class. right after my most lingkaran gelap bawah mata day...huahuahua..kononlah....
its getting weirder everyday... 36 days left.
i don't really know which one is the worst one.
that hit so badly...
is it this one assignment per week thing?
yeah....every thursday is a submission day for all sort of assignment. at least xdelah satu khamis sampai 10 kene submit kan? tapi still....xdan nak bernafas..jadinya friday je yg tarik nafas n hembus kejap. sabtu get back on work.......kelas,kelas,kelas,kelas, submit something else now.
or is it the things with this place? the rules that i'm not keen of?the 'runaway' card that was always 'being misplaced'... the not so good news i received two or perhaps nearly three weeks ago? the so many websites blocked here and there? have no idea...... clearly, i'm not coping well with this.

i'm terrible at time management. i dont need anyone to tell me that. but...
there's one more thing i'm terrible at; lipat baju. being doing that since 10pm last nite. tak siap2 jugak..... i have always hated it. lipat baju.... please...something else? basuh baju pun better lagi dari lipat tau...

looking forward for the first thursday  yang takde bulatan merah sekelilingnya on my calendar after a while..yeah, of course. forum. seminar. lawatan. didn't circle that.they dont weigh the same as assignment.aite?..so..macam lega sedikit di situ..sedikits lah..sedikits..lama-lama boleh jadi bukit. like my baju-baju yang kene lipat nih..kan?





*anyway, thanks to that someone; tomorrow is definitely gonna be a better day.

Crapping..

Public speaking.
So it was today.
it was this morning.
and i was the one who took the paper with number 1 written on it.
God is great. He gives me many great friends.
My trembling feet, ears, eyes, kidney, and etc should be more than enough to beg helps from them.
So timi did it first instead. Oh, should i actually mention this? arh...just let it out, so...actually i was thinking, if i am extra lucky today, i might get my LTP group to present first too! hoooorayyy!!

anyway, lets talk about the public speaking again. I had my first and last one in 2005. It went...horrible! To cut it short, the teacher in charge refused to talk with me after that, until...today..yeah, today lah, dah after school i never actually meet her again.
-clearing throat-

so, as promised, he reminded zizi last night about it, with a promise that the audience is gonna be just us, 24. minus farah who is currently at her brother's wedding in Selangor. so, just 23. plus him, 24 again. eh..ok stop.
So, guess what? As i predicted,he, of course would have invited other classes as well. HEy its product of UK talking in public!!!! Like seriously -__-

so tadaaaaa... so many people, some sitting, some standing.
good. i was surprised. really.
so no magic happened to me. last night i was praying so hard, make it easy for me....amin. i dont know, something like, storm, fire emergency, i fall sick, yeah anything that would delay this. anything. ANYTHING.

But NOTHING happened. nothing as i imagined. so it went like this, i stood there, chickened. andbabbling around, from UK to my friends, and how lovely they are, and then to the library, the printing services, assignment, the guards, to the rules, to the cafe, the food,  to the public speaking, to people, facebook, twitter, and even, myself. oh yeah, en even pengarah. like seriously.

and then i left.

lets pray for a better tomorrow peeps!

prodigious dreams

to wake up and stop yourself from living in a dreamland that would never get real is hard isn't it?

so hi again blog yang telah berlabah-labah, kerengga dan semut api.

lama tak jumpa..

i think, i left this when i'm still in the UK. try to get back to you but my smartphone apparently is just another lame superstupidphone as it touch down KLIA. huhu. so, lotsa pending posts coming....

so how was that 'mainan' ?

well...it went greatly fine. like seriously. biasalah cabaran sikit-sikit kan? some people can't accept the fact that things have changed, and will keep on changing. let this change too please. #dream 1

insyaAllah i will stay the way i wanna be, the way which i believe is the best for me till my last day, with His will of course. InsyaAllah, that would not change. amin. #dream 2

hey, being back here (Malaysia) is not that bad actually. lotsa conflicts, firstly within yourself, with you clock, watch and alarms, with the weather, the systems, rules, etc etc.  but here as in (maktab) is well.... hurm, stop complaining. that should wrap up the whole situation well aite? things will get better. #dream 3

giler malas nak tulis. dah tu nape gatal jugak tulis. sebab aku rase macam dah makin bodoh sebab lama tak taip ape-ape. english or even bahasa. teruk sangat dah. berkarat yang terengganu kate; 'karat dekkoh' (extremely lousy level) hopefully hipotesis semakin rajin maka semakin pandai akan berjaya jadi nyata, #dream 4.

i ate popia nestum far too much lately. dah jadi macam baby sangat dah kan? makanya, time to sleep. pukul 12 is super lewat sangat dah...kbai,.assalamualaikum.