no more no

dear you, and you and all of you and myself,

cry no, smile more,
hate no, love more.
when there's no no, you'll insyaAllah get more.

i wasn't giving a speech, nor preaching an advise..
its just words of encouraging,
with millions of hope, hoping that it could bloom a little more hope,
in you and me, and we.
insyaAllah,

have faith in Him.
He loves us all...

Apa tanda suka?

Apakah tanda-tanda atau bukti-bukti yang menunjukkan anda benar-benar telah jatuh suka kat something, someone or some-apeapejela...?

anda teringat selalu?
anda senyum sorang-sorang macam kerang busuk? (dont know how kerang busuk's smile looks like though)
anda..ermmm....mimpikanye?
anda borak pasal tu selalu? even kat fb and twitter and dunia maya lain mahupun tidak maya?
or you cook something that was trully inspired by it??

oh yeah,
i was sooooooo crazy about this one drama currently aired by TV3 every Tuesday.
too crazy about it till i keep asking my friend if there's such drink/food with that name exist?

so semalam,
dengan penuh yakin dan redha sekali, i decided to try by humban-ing everything yang ada kat dapur, those yang guna half or suku dari majlis before and those yang i have lam cupboard.

masa buat, cuak yang terlalulah amat sebab ada certain time tu rupa dier ada unsur-unsur was-was antara nak jadi or tak jadi..jadilah resepi main tambah itu ini sesuka hati.

in the picture above, hasil setelah berkungfu di dapur..*i wasn't expected dapat banyak...which is why cuak sebab periuk macam tak mau muat dah....

bila dah potong dan dah makan lebih separuh, macam nilah rupa dier;

dan nama dier?
hehe..jangan marah ye amir n zara; can i call it puding vanillacoklat?
teeheee

jauhi GAJAH...

semalam, as stated in the previous entry we have our weekly sisters' gathering..++ sharing session here in House 13.. *tibe-tibe tangkap tacing...i wont be referring myself as one of the house 13 members dah tak lama lagi...*
anyway, back to the topic,
masa sharing session tersebut,
banyaklah stori-mori kuar...

satu ketika,
keluarlah kisah gajah.
yerp,
GAJAH. (this one yer>>> )

i found this story while blogwalking gaya catwalk..at this blog @http://azamhusni.blogspot.com/2010/04/teguh-dengan-matlamat.html
so you can read the whole long version there.
the pendek version will be like this,

"once, while Imam Malik was teaching his students, suddenly a group of elephant passed by. During that time, at that place, elephant is such a unique and rare type of animal. It'll be like seeing a ufo or an alien -if you can see an elephant there. Magic dowh magic. So, every student ran to see elephant except for this one young man. Imam Malik asked him, 'why dont you join others to see the elephant?". and he replied, "I came here from a far (he is from Andalusia a.k.a Spain) to learn (from you), not to see the elephants". 

during our sharing session, i told the story and ask others to give their comments on the story,
especially the dialogue part "I came here to learn from you, not to see the gajah" (elephant- bunyi gajah macam lagi syok ar)
so here are some of the comments given
1: "like us, we are here to study not to do shopping.." uhhuk.
2: "we should focus...esp when it comes to study n..."
3: "we get what we aim. if we came here to learn about something tu, then we got the knowledge, if we came here to see the elephant we only get to see the elephantlah"
4: "have some respect to the majlis ilmu"
5: " "etc etc etc... tak larat nak retype..

So the conclusion from the story? There are so many gajah around us, whether you as a student, or a pekerja, a whatever..there's  gajah too. Gajah tu, we can put it as the 'distraction', distracting us from our main goal/aim.
BE someone with strong DETERMINATION, cleverly decide and choose your PRIORITY, and then from the strong will and motivation and what not, you'll insyaAllah become more consistent and ISTIQAMAH in whatever you do. Bagilah gajah ke harimau ke walau buaya darat tegar sekalipun..tak tergoncang imanmu, tak tergoyah prinsipmu. :) cheiwahh..

Orang kata tak guna bagi orang input kalau kita sendiri pun tak amalkan.
So last night, just 3 or 4 hours after sharing that, nahh,.,. i reached to that point: "practice what you preach" moment. We have one decision to make with several possible choices, and many upcoming implications of each choices..

Gajah gajah sekelian...berambus dari depan mataku, jangan kau halang aku dari melihat destinasi impianku.

"rabbi, a'udzubika minhamadzaatisy syayaatiin"

two to two too..

officially aged -started with the number 2 and ended the same- aCcording to any gmt zone in this planet;


And yet according to UK-zoom skit>> plymouth; skiit lagi>>>city bus, I am still legally a 'child'

nicely dated,
today is also the day where according to the kampung's schedule; it is our house turn to do the weekly gathering among the sisters... after several replan nak tukar date jadi tak jadi jadi tak jadi...last-last jadi jugak semalam..

so, for the first time,
of my entire life,
on my birthday,
i have a majlis of bacaan yasin in my house.
although the bacaan yasin isn't initially intended for my birthday la...
nice..init?

and actually bila dibuat scannning n skimming imbas semula; 2 years ago on my birthday, in the middle of the majlis, someone buat cadangan to do something like this in future rather than having the balloon-candle-cake stuff..
ironik.

Tarikh dah lepas. Umur dah bertambah. Semoga amal juga bertambah dan hutang akan lepas.


insyaAllah...
amin....

a painkiller, for the heart.

marah.geram.sebal.bengang.
aku marah sangat-sangat.
and mase marah teringat janji nombor 2; 'bila marah, maafkanlah'
isyk, cepat-cepat hati yang tengah hot menjawab; "tapi now aku marah dengan library. itu bangunan, macam mana nak maafkan?!!". buruk betul rupa mase tuh.-dah duk tengah ikut nasihat pak cik shytan macam mana nak cantik?!

ok, move to the next step. steps. right when anak tangga habis ada kerusi.
'kalau marah sambil jalan, stop. kalau sedang berdiri, duduk.'
ok, pandai je library ni, tahu suka buat orang marah banyak je kerusi bergelimpangan kat sini.
dah duduk masih lagi geram. suhu now 1 ke 0 entah, tapi muka aku meruap-ruap merah. as if lah i'm looking at a mirror now.
aku marah kat cik kak yang tak buat tugas yang dah diamanahkan pada dier. aku marah kat encik yang lupa janjinyer. aku marah kat mak cik yang tak mahu paham dan menhentam sesuka ati. makin melarat, aku marah kat system library yang tak function leklok.  aku marah kat pengurusan yang x makesurekan semua tuh. aku marah kat library ni sebab library patotnye ade semua buku yang students need. makin ridiculous, aku marah kat penulis buku yang jual buku dier mahal sangat. aku marah kat yang lain-lain sebab input dorang tak lengkap.
terlupa plak nak marah diri sendiri. who ask you to choose this topic anyway?
urgh. now aku marah kat diri sendiri, sebab salahkan aku balik.
kosongkan kejap.

ape yang takde? ape yang tak kene?
silap,
 i wasn't marah actually, that marah has turn into something else.
sakit hati.
dan hati yang sakit perlukan ubat.

astaghfirullah alazeem.

the painkiller for my heart.

one and only.

Sabr (patience) & shukr (gratitude) go together. When you're not patient, you start complaining. That is the sign that you're not grateful

lambatnya nak faham.lambatnya nak ingat. dah sempat keluar word semburan api banyak dah.
ya Allah, ampunkan aku.

colours....calories...de kaitan x?

i have this thing about food with colours. i'll enjoy eating it double than usual!
makan yang satu tona tuh, bukan x sedap..cuma...kalau ia bulih diwarna-warnakan rase macam seri dan rase dier naik ke mata turun ke hati bak kate my mom. Ooh yes, i must "got this" from her then.

so if i cook sayur, i'll try to make it ade gak hijau tuh plus with yellow ke, merah ke, oren2 carrot ke, ape2 je..

if i can't make the sayur becomes a bit more colourful, then just make the lauk a bit more cheerful wud be fine as well..
lau ayam masak merah, sayur hijau atas nasi putih..kan dah kaler2 tuh?
lau tak, boleh buat air bandung ke air oren ke..
dangg!! kronik.



so,
i really did enjoy myself baking this cake. its called rainbow cake. but i dont have 7 diff colouring at home, so kire acilah ni...

dier x hangus ni, dier cume sunburn sedikit

please dont judge the outer, inside dier x sunburn pown.

nah..pelangi versi baru..xde violet2 seme..nonsense tuh.. :P

 making me happier to see it a bit 'taller' this time. dari first trial mase nak bagi kat dak2 sekolah cornwall time farewell dulu..hak tuh..hurm, rendang sedikit..kuikuikui

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sudah.
sekian,

mase untuk berjuang kembali dalam medan Dissertation setelah off-day selama dua hari. 

:) 

++hari ni shopping best giler..huahuahuahua

ok.

bye. nak start working now.